You were my first proper boyfriend
I didn't know how hard two months could be
We had our fights I know that
But I saw the way you looked at me
You looked at me as we held each other
My fingers combing your hair
You looked right into me and
You told me you'd always care
I believed you Ben
I believed I was adored
Didn't think you'd just give up on me
Didn't ever think I would be ignored.

Why can't you talk to me?
And say what needs to be said?
Do you have a guilty conscience Ben?
A devil dancing through your head?
I've heard the bad things
And now I feel so alone,
You have no idea how much it hurt me,
To have a girl answer your phone.

She laughed down the receiver,
I could hear you laugh too,
Tell me, what the hell did I do?
To deserve a bastard like you?
The thing I loved in you,
Was now all a lie
The thing I valued so much
Now breaks me and I cry

Each tear a loss of hope
Another waste of my time
Why should I cry over you
When it was you who did the crime

As I used to lay beside you
Your pounding heart, always there
Didn't know that underneath it all
Your chest was completely bare.

Roses are red, violets are blue...
I‘m in love but not with you...
When we broke up you thought I cried
But all it was...
Was another guy,
You told your friends that I was a trick,
I told mine that you had a weak dick...
I said I loved you
And you thought it was true,
But guess what baby?!
You got played too!!

ever since i‘ve loved you
you‘ve been puttin‘ me down
and treatin‘ me like a clown
but i won‘t take it no more
no, i won‘t take it for sure
you‘ve acted like i‘m your cart
a special one just for your heart
you take me when you need me
and you put me back when your done
but i won‘t take it no more
no i won‘t take it for sure
so here‘s the key that i‘ve cherished for so longthe one that made me break out in song whenever i thought you were near
it‘s the key to your heart
cause i won‘t be needin‘ it no more
no i won‘t be needin‘ it for sure

u thought u could cheat
n never get caught up in the heat
u thought u were slick
but i always knew u were a dick

u thought that u could go behind my back
but u no i don‘t roll like that
so grab ur man and grab ur bag
because we all no ur just a little fag



P.S. U CHEATED ON ME WITH A FUCKIN MAN U FUCKIN ASS WHOLE, BUT THAT‘S OK CAUSE I CHEATed on u with ur brother

Play,Play ,play
All u do is play
evry single day
all u do is play
it doesnt matter wat day
u have u grl in evry area code
but if it werent 4 me it nevr woul have showed
u think ur slick
u also think u have the biggets d*ck
u think u get alotta wiki wiki(lol)u have dis 1 girl u say
u love alot but u still play
u say she is ur life
and that soon she‘ll be ur wife
u think ur the biggest player around
but compared 2 me ur the shit on the ground
ur a heartbreaker
u used 2 b my dreammaker
but ur really just a faker
u told ur girl u would never cheat
right now your with me on my bed
Guess wat u just been beat!
now at the wedding she says 2 u she will never be wed
ur confused at how her love was lost
u want 2 find out what happened at w/e cost
the night u were layin asleep on my bed
the day b4 u were 2 be wed
it was late
u werent awake
and it was time 2 meet ur fate
i turned off the hidden camera
and gave it 2 my girl Tamera
the nxt day st the beginin of the ceromony
b4 u got 2 the wedding
ur future wife cried out as if in agony
evry1 just stared and didnt say a thing
the video was done playing
and off came the ring
Isat in the front happily amused
at how fast her love u did loose
and all this happened bcuz of who?
it all happened bcuz of u
and becuz of all the things u do..........~by: kns~

all the lies you told
how can you be so cold.
you said you loved me
and i was everything you need me to be

i cried so many nights
praying we can end the fights
you were my first love
you grab me with your glove

you played those chidish games
they are very lame
boy, i used to look at you with pride and grace
now i look at you with hatred and disgrace

I THOUGHT U CARE FOR ME
I THOUGHT U WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR ME
I THOUGHT U WANTED ME
I THOUGHT U LOEVD ME
BUT I GUESS I THOUGHT WRONG

We were such good friends/such good lovers
We trusted each other completely/ and protected one another
Sacrifices were made/and promises were said
Both those days are long gone/but your not even a little bit sad

Don‘t you even reminize a little bit?
The arguments?/the fight?
The kisses?/the wishes goodnight?
The backrub on the beach/and the day I was mad
The day you said you‘ll love me forever/ and never treat me bad

Do you remember that ver special day?
When my blood satined your hands?
From your pleasure/ my pain?
Look again, cuz it‘s still there
It was my way of showing you how much I cared

From that day on/ a bond came to be
A bond I do not want/ and neither do you, it seems
Some days I wish we never met/ that I could re–set time
But everything happens for a reason/ Or is that just another line?

In school, I sense that you are there/ amd I tell my eyes to look away/
But my heart feels your presence and forces them to stay
I see you now, in the eyes of my peers/
It‘s the truth/and it‘s what I feared
That you were a pussy wanting boy/
Once you got it you were through/ that I was your toy
But your wrong, I‘m a women with a heart/
A heart you have broken/a heart that fell apart

But my heart will eventually heal/ and I will move on
The question that stands is:/ why do I still have love for you.../after all the shit you‘ve done?

This poem is deticated to my first love, Omar Vazquez

Roses are red
Violets are blue
I am in love with two guys
And I don‘t know what to do.

I don‘t want to break a heart
But I will have to choose
This choice will be hard
And someone will lose.

My choice has been made
I hope it is right
I feel like a blade
Is cutting through this night.

So now roses are dead
And violets are too
I messed up big time
Now I am screwed!!

I KNEW YOU LOVED ME,
I FELT THAT YOU DID,
I WAS HURT,
BECAUSE YOU WERE MY BEST FREIND,
I TOLD EVERYONE YOU WERE MY ONLY ONE,
I SAW US,
I KNOW YOU DID TO,
BECAUSE YOU TOLD ME ONCE I WAS EVERYTHING TO YOU,
YOU HURT ME SO BAD IT‘S HARD TO TALK TO YOU,
WHEN I SEE YOUR FACE THEY ONLY THING I WANNA DO IS KISS YOU,
I WOULDENT CHANGE THE WAY I FEEL,
I WOULDENT BECAUSE I KNOW YOU FEEL THE SAME IN MANY WAY‘S,
THE PROBLEM IS YOUR WITH SOMONE,
I KNOW IF YOU WASENT YOU WOULD BE HOLDING MY HAND‘S,
YOU WOULD TELL ME EVERYDAY YOU WERE SORRY AND NEVER WANT TO HURT ME AGAIN,
AT LEAST THAT‘S WHAT I THOUGHT WAS WHAT WOULD HAPPEN.

J)IS FOR JON THE ONE I LOVE.
O)IS FOR THE ONLY ONE I WANT..
N)IS FOR THE WAY YOU NEVER LET ME DOWN...
JON NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU HATE ME I WILL STILL LOVE YOU....

He‘s the devil in my soul,
He‘s the devil that rises full,
Full with intensity,
And lots of anger,
He‘s the devil that broke my heart,
And left the pain to linger.

The lingering pain,
Which is still here today,
Hurts worse and worse ~ day by day,
As i think about him ~ i go insane.

Crazy as i may seem,
But madly in love i will always be.

never say " i love you"
if you really don‘t care
never talk about feelings
if they really arent there
never hold my hand
if your gonna break my heart
never say your going to
if you dont plan to start
never look into my eyes
if all you do is lie
never say hi
if you really mean good–bye
if you really mean forever
say you will try
never say forever
cuz forever makes me cry

i hate u i wish u fuking die mate u played me, u hate me bad enough that u did n‘t see it i fuckin hate u so fuckin much that i fuckin wish i have never ment u so fuck off and leave me the hell alone.

Roses are red, violets are blue i fell in love but not with you,when we broke up i thought i‘d cry why would i cry? you are just a typical guy! you told your friends that we were just a game i feel like crap, when i here your name i told you that i love you but that‘s not true cos GUESS WHAT BABY? I PLAYED YOU TO.

Fate brought us 2gether i thought you were the one you said you always be there, but when i called you did‘nt come i thought you were my angel sent from heaven sky,i was so happy in your presence, but now i wonder why? i looked deep into your eyes, i got that feeling in my heart, But the disrespect you showed me, left me torn apart,i couldnt help noticing the way you looked at her, you promised you‘d be faithful in the end you never were, if i had realised earlier, all those lies you said, i would have saved myself the heartbreak, and all the tears i shed.

I thought you loved me and cared,
what about all the good memories we shared?
I thought we would be happy together,
and I thought our love would last forever.
I met you and I believed in true love,
but it‘s not beautiful like a pure white dove.
I know now true love is nothing at all,
love is a lie and it‘s like hitting a brick wall.
It leads you on then makes you feel like nobody,
while knocking the breath right out of your body.
Your so called love left bruises to start,
and your words cut deep into my heart.
You‘d rather be at work that I can see,
your happier when your far away from me.
You always did put on a little show,
but I see for us it‘s too late now.

SOMETHiNG‘S WRONG WiTH MY HEART. I THiNK iT WAS TORN APART. iT WAS BY LOVE. BUT I AiNT DOWN CUZ i‘M STiLL THE ONE ABOVE. THE WORLD CAN‘T SPiN WiTHOUT LOVE OR HATRED. JUST BECAUSE CERTAiN PEOPLE FEEL BETRAYED. BETRAYED BY THEY TRUE LOVE. iS iT SUPPOSED TO BE TRUE? OR iS iT SUPPOSED TO BE ME AND YOU? iS LOVE SUPPOSED TO HURT? iS iT SUPOSED TO TEAR YOU APART AND THROW YOU iN THE DiRT? NO, LOVE AiNT SUPPOSED TO DO THAT. iS iT SUPPOSED TO BREAK YOUR HEART WiTH A BAT? NAH, THAT DON‘T HIT NO HOMERUN. LOVE iS PASSiONATE, ROMANTiC, AND EXOTiC. LOVE iS ME AND YOU

I used to think that I was blind and made a big mistake, but if you really cared for me than fight for goodness sake.

I try to push you from my mind and sometimes do succeed. But you come crawling back again like a growing seed.

I‘ve cried, I‘ve screamed, I‘ve lost control to make you go away. Please let me go, let me be myself for just one day.

I will always keep you in my heart, the pain for ever more. But I have to let you go for now ‘cause I can‘t take it no more.

When two people......

when two people really love each other
and they can never understand one another
when their life becomes misery
what can they do to solve lifes mystery?
all along I tried to answer this question
but i could never come to conclusion
my decision was harder than life
but I had no choice but try to answer my question
my wounded heart is walking down on earth
I cannot help but watch it die slowly
I will never regret my decision
because I really don‘t know how I came to conclusion
At least I tried to answer my question
I swear i never wanted to be a loser
I was young and delight I gave you all my life
You took my hand and you said you would love me
but boy to you its just a game ( you know its just too late)
your chance has come and gone
so let me go now
because time has made me strong
You and I know that is the truth
I guess I lost my battle
to be honest I really couldn‘t anwer how two people who love each other
could not understand each other and end up in misery
because its really a mystery
I came to conclusion that one of us could not afford to be honest
and give back unconditional love because love don‘t cost a thing
now you know my decision was harder than life
I really got tired of solving the jigsaw puzzle
so I guess its time to say goodbye