SHE‘S JUST ONE AMOUNG MANY–
OF WHOM, YOUR HER DESIRE,
TO HER, YOUR A PRIZE–
THAT SHE‘LL SCHEME TO AQUIRE,
YOUR CHARMS WILL ENCHANT HER–
AND SHE‘LL BECOME YOUR 1 FASCINATION,
AND I‘LL ENDURE BLATANT PROMOTION–
OF HER INFILTRATION,
AND IT DOESN‘T TAKE LONG–
FOR HER CLAWS TO SINK DEEP,
YOU MAY HAVE A GIRLFRIEND–
BUT SHE‘S AT THE TOP OF YOUR HEAP.

i loved u like you were the world and i was only lucky to be in it;
i stood by you right or wrong if you needed something i would of died just to get it!
i was never thought of or loved and somebody needed to think of me but my mind was with you and you were out of sight.
not all but most nights you slept right beside me but i was lonely every fucking night.
i saw your evil and your stupid ass ways but still i stayed because i loved you;
i was a fool to ever play your games but now im not sorry we are done finished we are through.
you played me and now its my turn to roll the dice;
i played fair you played dirty and now your not going to get it just as bad but maybe just twice.
paybacks a bitch as thats what you said i was;
imma show you a bitch, the bitchest,if there ever was!!!!!

Love always seems to be true...

But when you need love to come through...

It will abandon you.

Love will blind you...

No one can find you.

You ignore friends...

and break what were to be long lasting mends.

Love will always hurt...

when it throughs you in the dirt.

But when love is true...

like the sky is blue...

It will save you.

Many people look everywhere...

and never notice the one thats there.

YOU WANT YOUR HOUSEKEEPER
TO STAY OUT OF YOUR SLEEPER,
YOU HAVE OTHER GIRLS FOR THAT.
YOU SHOULD FIND ONE WHO'S CHEAPER.
OR BUY THAT BITCH A DAMN BEEPER.
AND MAKE HER YOUR FUCKING DOOR MAT!

BECAUSE AS LONG AS I'M HERE
IM STUCK WAY IN THE REAR.
AND MY DAYS ARE ALL FILLED WITH DOUBT.
WHEN SHE CALLS SHOULD I CHEER?
OR SHOULD I CRY OUT OF FEAR?
OR SHOULD I GO AHEAD & MOVE OUT?

I'M THE CAUSE OF YOUR STRESS
AND I'M WHY YOUR HOUSE IS A MESS
SO IT'S ME WHO CAN TAKE ALL THE BLAME
I WOULD MOST LIKELY GUESS
THAT YOU COULDN'T CARE LESS
THAT I LOVE YOU BUT I HATE LIKE THIS GAME

BESIDES, I'M SO BEYOND TIRED,
OF THE FEAR I'LL BE FIRED.
AND OF NOT EVER FEELING TOO GOOD.
JUST KEEP GETTING CHICKS WIRED
UNTIL YOUR RETIRED,
THAT MAKES YOU HAPPIER THAN I EVER COULD!

AND FOR ALL OF YOUR SHIT
YOU JUST WOULDN'T QUIT
NOW'S THE TIME FOR YOU TO RUN FREE
BECAUSE IT'S TIME THAT WE SPLIT
WE AREN'T A GOOD FIT
DID YOU ONCE EVER THINK ABOUT ME?

Every night, tears i shed
Everyday is a day i dread
When you‘re around
I wish you weren‘t
Because everytime i seem to hurt
I try to take it day by day
But you‘re in my thoughts
And won‘t go away
I never wanted to feel like this
I never asked to even exist
I just want you to hold me tight
And tell me things will be alright
But you don‘t even seem to care
And never noticed my love was there
Even though it‘s painful to me
I‘ll love you forever endlessly

Written wednesday 7th may 2003

I wrote this about my 1st love who i adored funnily enough i really hate his guts now it took me a year and a half to realise i was better off without him it was the best thing i ever did dumping him.

All i can say im sorry. im sorry for treating you the way i did> Sorry for making you feel that you were never worth anything. I guess u were correct i should of treated u like u were one in a million. But like i said i hated u so much that i believed that my love for u was nothing but a fling! and now that i see i have lost u to another girl all i can say if im sorry for all the pain that i caused u. and lastly i want u to know that my love for you is still present no matter now if u hate me.

I remember the day when we met
A day i now do regret
Not because of the person you are
It‘s because we didn‘t make it that far

You were a special person to me
An angel, joyful, happy and free
We had something special for us two
But for you i just will not do

Perfect and the best is what you said
You lit up my life, my heart and my head
Now you just give up on what we had
That is a terrible loss, so so sad


It a shame you can‘t stand by me
With all the dreams we wanted to be
It‘s a shame i mean nothing to you
I am loyal, honest and true

Hurting yourself in this way
Hurts me each and every day
You used to give me a big kiss
And say we will fix this

Our problem was really so small
I guess you didn‘t want me at all
I said i would fix myself
Now look how you have made my health

What i said was not how i felt
It was words from the life i once dealt
I know that doesn‘t make it alright
Those words with you i tried so hard to fight

You were everything, the world to me
But you just don‘t want to even see
I think it was an easy escape for you
Easier then for you to say we‘re through

I can‘t help that i fear loss
It really does make me cross
You don‘t believe how i felt about you
you just leave me without a clue

I sit here and die all alone
Just hoping you will call my phone
You don‘t care what has happened to us
I feel like i have been hit by a bus

I fell totally in love with you
Was your love for me even true
To leave me the way that you did
I am lost like a little kid

What does it matter what i write
I shouldn‘t even be on this sad site
Nothing, no apology or anything would do
Because i never meant anything to you


It‘s hopeless

you meet a cheap girl
you want to impress
soon, you‘ll give her the role
of your covert mistress
and after a while
as the feelings progress
you‘ll "wish you were free!"
you‘ll both confess
and her friend with a woman
she‘ll now want to possess
she‘ll start interfering
and i‘ll start seeing you less
then one day she knocks on our door
in the skank–i–est dress
to finagle her way in posistion
to make my life a mess
she‘ll know your on her side
so she‘s sure for success
she plans to turn you against me
with her phoney finesse
and "hell no! we‘re not fucking!"
really means, "oh why, yes."
but no matter your answer
like i had to guess
you‘d both soon become hostile
and feel the urge to agress
because you‘ll just be "two friends"
that i‘ll just try to "oppress"
lcmckay 2007

you meet a cheap girl
you want to impress
soon, you‘ll give her the role
of your covert mistress
and after a while
as the feelings progress
you‘ll "wish you were free!"
you‘ll both confess
and her friend with a woman
she‘ll now want to possess
she‘ll start interfering
and i‘ll start seeing you less
then one day she knocks on our door
in the skank–i–est dress
to finagle her way in posistion
to make my life a mess
she‘ll know your on her side
so she‘s sure for success
she plans to turn you against me
with her phoney finesse
and "hell no! we‘re not fucking!"
really means, "oh why, yes."
but no matter your answer
like i had to guess
you‘d both soon become hostile
and feel the urge to agress
because you‘ll just be "two friends"
that i‘ll just try to "oppress"

Heartbreaks are promised
Lies will be there
Never happy, always tears

Asked you to be there
Never what i say
Never once cared
Almost everyday,

When will the pain stop?
When will i open my eyes?
Just because your not
When will i stop living a lie?

A lie thats tearn me apart
And the things that you do...
You walk all over my heart
And i‘m still sitting here sayin‘
"I still Love you"

the story of the girl,
who fell for her bit on the side,
she didnt care about her relationship,
he dignity or pride.

she was going to leave her partner,
for the lover she thought loved her back,
but then she suddenly started to see,
with her lover there began a crack.

fed up with waiting for her,
he wanted her there and now,
but then all of his intrest subsided,
and she just didnt know how.

so confused and stuch with her boyfriend,
she would cry all day and night,
because she thought he loved her,
and her lover wasnt wrong but right?

and so the story carries on,
to the days she missed him everything he said,
and walked passed her lover everyday,
and everytime she was filled with dread.

she never thought she‘d fall for a lover,
and he would end the start,
because she‘d always loved him,
from the moment she gave him her heart.

he made her realise how bad she felt,
with her partner always in toe,
she would have left him for her lover,
but now hes not a lover, he‘s foe.

Im a girl who dosent need you
I know you now and I see right through
You say you love me
but did you tell her that too
Together forever
But that‘s not true
I spent half my time
a waste for you
Should have been smarter
Don‘t you see ur a player Carter
2 girls at once
did you really think i was dunce
Im a girl who dosent need you
want you
have you
or keep you
Leave it to you to get over your head
and screw around with my best friend

He wont answer me.
HE doesnt call.
He doesnt love.
with a heart at all.
i fell in his trap
yet once again.
i cant cry anymore.
without any tears.
i cannot smile without happiness.
and i cant break unless already broken.

I wanna walk away,
but I don‘t wanna be left a stray.
Will you stay or will you go?
Will you be a friend or become a foe?

If all I want is peace,
will I be kept on a leash?
Stray away from love
will all change above?

Left with this heavy feeling,
will there be any healing?
If I give you trust,
Will all you want is lust?

I wanna walk away,
but I dont wanna be left a stray.
Stay or...go?
Friend or...foe?

She sits there waiting,
hating everything she is.
He stands there pacing,
loving everything she was.

She comes home and cuts,
remembering being called a slut.
He stands in her window crying,
to see her wrists bleeding.

He runs in to save her,
she rushes out to hide.
She runs in the closet and pulls out a gun,
he opens the closet to see that his true love is done!

Enough of this shit,
Don‘t fuck with my head.
If it weren‘t for you,
I wouldn‘t wish I were dead.

Take back all the lies,
The lies that you‘ve told.
They‘re slowly fading,
And turning old.

This pain that you‘ve given,
Was one giant mistake.
Because all you do,
Is you take, and you take.

Now that she‘s yours,
I hope you are happy.
Because you‘ve turned my once vibrant life,
Depressing and sappy.

Why did you lie,
Instead of telling me the truth?
Now all I want,
Is to be alone with this noose.

Now that your plan,
has come to an end.
You‘ll no longer find me,
a dear and true friend.

I‘ve got you,
You‘re caught.
So please,
Leave me alone and let me rot.

Love me not, Love me Yes All ive done is all a mess,
I played it well i Played it good, what can i do you play me chess?
I thought I can accept you no matter what you become
but believing that is all a lie...
You had change for no good reason
putting my heart in all question

I had given you my all
offered everything I got
but your love is a deception

I watch you pass me by
you & your girl
hand in hand
you made me cry
you made me bleed
I said all i can
to make you understand
your happy smile,
it make‘s me frown
when your with her
the world turns gray
you & me
thats my dream,
but, every time i wish on a star,
or when the clock reads 11:11,
my wish never come‘s true
and everything becomes
sorrow and sadness
––
age 14

I watch you pass me by
you & your girl
hand in hand
you made me cry
you made me bleed
I said all i can
to make you understand
your happy smile,
it make‘s me frown
when your with her
the world turns gray
you & me
thats my dream,
but, every time i wish on a star,
or when the clock reads 11:11,
my wish never come‘s true
and everything becomes sorrow and sadness
the dark tears i my eye‘s roll down my cheek

I hate it when everytime i go to call him hes always with his freinds,It stupid.He acts all sweet and innocent when were alone.But ill bet ya when hes with his freinds hes a whole diffrent story.

Soo idk i wanna end it but its hard cause he‘s my first true love,I know i could find better,& to treat me right.But i know i wont find anyone that ill love as much as him =/

Soo help me plz