I always have this feeling
Like your holding something back,
Why do you insinuate
That I should start to pack?
Or drop a little hint
That I should find another guy,
I always have this feeling
Like you want to say goodbye,
Or are you really thinking
"She must be tired of my shit"?
And would that be the reason
For the attitude you get?
I'm not on the look out
To find me another man,
Or is it you fucking w/ me
Just because you can?
Or is it you who‘s thinking
Of trading me in soon,
Maybe you've got your eye
On some nasty old baboon.
Either way, my Honey–Baby,
I don't like this result,
I never know if your joking,
Or if it‘s a real insult,
But I hope your only kidding
And not truly serious,
I want to think that where I stand
Is not mysterious,
And since you‘re still debating
Whether my love‘s true or not,
In all of your confusion,
You might lose all that you‘ve got,
So in all your accusations,
Of me wanting other men,
Just serve to blow your cover
And tell me where you‘ve been,
Despite the facts you say I‘m fake,
But keep in mind it's you I want,
And it's you who wants a break.


This one‘s for my boyfriend,
who should really get a clue,
If I‘m not sitting at the house,
Then I‘m hanging out with you,
But if it makes things better,
When you feel that guilt inside,
You can accuse me honey,
Of all the shit you hide,
I know this might surprise you
But that trick is obvious,
And it‘s the only one you‘ve got,
So it‘s extra hard to miss.
But I guess I have to love you,
Even though you are a jerk,
But by now you ought to know,
Your "Reverse psychology" won‘t work

This is not a love poem for it is typed with needles that poke holes in my heart
Causing it to bleed a flow of words
"No use crying over spilt blood"
For instead of landing next door to your heart
My blood drops splater onto the hungry ground
And they evaporate into the air just like the love that was once born in your heart.
This is not a love poem for instead of sweet melodies I hear volcanic eruptions of raw fury
As we pounce at each other like wild carnivores over a piece of decaying flesh
Verbal grenades trown with so much pleasure that even Hitler would be disempowered
This is not a love poem for my dead soul is trapped in my living body
Slowly decomposing me from the iside out
The utterings of my mouth have turned into worms.
You‘re disgusted, the mere stench of me brings last night‘s supper right back up your throat
This is not a love poem for love lost its worth when pictures of deceit were painted upon your sheets
And my self respect is non existent fo I continue to long for one who‘s so unappreciative of my loyalty
And like a whore I surrender my body to a man who feels not an ounce of emotion for me
This is not a love poem for when you were here I suppressed all the love poems that tingled in my finger tips
Yearning to be recorded on red–romantic paper to be mounted upon your wall
I succumbed to my fears and let them fade away and now I‘m fading away from your memory
Like a song so meaningless it may as well be silent.
This is not a love poem for my here heart stands; naked and exposed...unsafe.
This is not a love poem for reading it you only feel harassed. Not loved.
So this is not a love poem.

Ure just another ho,
U fucking piece of trash,
Ure not worth any cash,
You‘ll never be lady like,
s0 go n take a hike,
Fuck u dum hore,
he was already bored,
With ure ugly ass body,
u aint no hottie,
That‘s my peace, u fucking tease:{

I see every word you spoke was to lay with me
And everything you did was for yourself
What happened to the love we shared?
You abandoned me and the man you became is heartless
I am flexible and cooperative but it‘s not enough
There is always something you gotta complain about
Just stop the game and walk the fuck out
Move onto another lover and let these old wounds heal
Because without you I was happy and with you
I am belittled so get your shit and don‘t turn around
I had enough of your bitchass drama and foolin around
Enough of your mouth and the sound of your voice
Remove your little dick self and respect this choice
Mother fucker!!!

I let you in for so long
I let you in even when you were gone
We had a life, we had love
Memories are all that I can think of
You use me
You abuse me
You can‘t break me
I‘m standing up to you
And all the hell you put me through
You once saved my broken heart
And now you are the one tearing it apart
I hate you for it
I hate that you don‘t give a sh!t
I pour my heart out to you
But you don‘t care do you?
You will never touch me again
You can‘t even call me a friend
You can‘t hurt me
You can‘t break me

You came into my life,
I gave you all my trust
years and years later,
I found that you were with her,
she had no grace to blush
she knew all about me,
you gave her everything including the holiday
and what makes it worse is now i cant trust you,
despite that i gave you a seccond chance you prommised me the world and more,
even though i knew you are an asshole,
that slept with that whore,
you tell me that you love me
you tell me that i can trust you but every now and then still i see that asshole that wont keep his word.

i let you have everything
my innocent
my heart
my support
my everything
you made me feel so alive
and then in a email you said
i dont like you i love brittany
and that will never change
funny how you take all these things from me
and get nothing back

There's a gun to my head
And I know not what to do
I want to save face
Therefore, I'll have to blame you

I'm morally wrong
But morally I'm right
I'm man enough to sin
But too coward to fight

Bury me in your hate
If it's what you have to do
I'll cut you till you bleed
But I won't bleed with you

I'm here with you always
But I'm nowhere in sight
I'm not the man you can control
But I am too weak to fight

I'll carry you through hell
Shelter those eyes of blue
You can hate the man inside
But it wasn't I, who did this to you

I wiped away your tears
So that I didn't have to see
All the the pain in your eyes
Was my reality

I'll be there in blood
That streams from your body
I'll shed a tear in sympathy
But I'm not really sorry

I'll never lie to those eyes
I'll always tell you what's true
But please, spare me the consequence
Because I won't comfort you

I found you on the ground
In love with another man
Slowly I gathered up the pieces
And then I ran

You see, I've told you I loved you
A thousand times before
Your just a name with a different face
Crying at my door

I'm utterly lost within myself
I'm lonely and that's true
All that I've ever wanted in life
Died inside of you


As I say these words
I hope you know they're true
I know not yet who I'm convincing
Isn't only you

In my heart, somewhere I can feel
A tiny shred of guilt
But I have to tell you I'm much too proud
To knock the walls I've built

I will think of you
In silence, from time to time
Then I will feel relief
Remembering it was you committing the crime

I will bury you
In a small place inside of me
And remember in darkness
The light you shined in me

I will look in the mirror
And all I'll see
Is your crying face
Staring back at me

You'll look in the mirror
And all you will see
Is a man who once lied
In all honesty

I hope you know I feel this too
Even though, through the worst
I was not there for you
I toss and turn inside my bed
Rehearsing all these things
That I never even said

There's a gun to my head
And I know not what to do
Hate the child inside the man
Not the one who lived in you&

forget his name forget his face
forget his kiss warm embrace
forget the times you spent together
remember now his gone forever
forget you cried the whole night long
forget him when they play your song
forget how close you two once were
remember now his chosen her
................................................................
a heart is not a playing thing a heart is not a toy
so if you want it broken give it to a boy
i gave my heart to you
and you smashed it like some glass
now all i can say is baby kiss my ass

WHAT IS THAT ,OR WHAT COULD IT BE

OH HELL NOAH NIGGA, YOU AINT STICKING THAT IN ME

ITS LOOKS LIKE A THUMB ,OR EVEN A PINKY

OH I‘M SORRY BABY THIS SHIT AINT WORKING WITH ME

BECAUSE ITS BEEN A WHILE

AND A HORNY BITCH LIKE ME

IS TRYING TO GET DOWN

OH NIGGA DONT TRY AND CLOWN

BECAUSE YOU KNOW WHAT I GOT IN MY CLOSET

AND I‘M GOING TO LET THAT MOTHER FUCKER

GET THE TALKING

SO DONT BE GETTING MAD

I JUST HAVE TO PASS

SO EXIT WHERE YOU ENTER

AND PLEASE FORGET MY NUMBER

OH LYING AZZ NIGGA I THOUGHT YOU HAD

A HUMMER

OH ITS IN THE SHOP

OH HELL NOAH NIGGA GO KICK ROCKS

PEACE BITCH!!!

(DOOR SLAM)

BY LEA JONES

I thought you love me.
I thought my heart love you too.
You lead me to love
But only to abandon me.

You threw me aside.
You punished my heart
All because I loved you.

Fucking me off...It‘s what you do best...
Putting my love to the ultimate test,
While leaving my heart a huge fucking mess!
So mean, so hateful, so unbelievably cold...
If I was to wait on your love...
I would first die from mold!
You say it‘s all me that I‘m such a BITCH...
I wish for just one day...
That our lives could be switched.
You would be floored...
And quite shocked at what you‘d see...
Things wouldn‘t last long...
The way things would be...
Cuz you wouldn‘t put up with me treating you...
The way you treat me!

why must you
change your mind
one day you love me
and
the next you find
that it‘s all wrong
and i‘m not right
which brings us to
another fight
make a decision
& give me a break
you want me or not?
FOR HEAVENS SAKE!

BIG MAN

Big man! Big words! Big plans!
All of your bull shit, I can‘t stand!
You live to hear your own empty words!
Brag about your money! Brag about your toys!
So materialistic, shallow beyond worlds!
I‘m sorry, what about your turds?
It takes you only to inhale, no sooner and your spewing forth your lonely tales!
Promising help and your loyalness, when all I‘m thinking is,
"Gee, I need to piss!"
Seems you will never, ‘get it,‘ and growing up is far too past.
Sadly, the only thing you care about is cash!
And yet I find it funny how you think of yourslf so highly and just!
A married man, who cheats on his wife, why would I dare trust?
And in the end who will come out on top?
You and me are the same, and both will return to dust!

Ms. Paula Reger

c. 2008

they sat love treat‘em rite and they come back for more, but im tired of the b.s cuz c i heard it all b4. they say be 1, luv and sacrifice ya life till he‘s pleased but fuck that cuz its time 2 do me. tired of smiling wen society says smile for now it gets betta , but then why am i living in such bad weather. so sick and tired of his bitchass complainin 1 more word and ill be faintin. annoyed with your mixed ass mixed up in this alphabet soup that says run walk jus get the hell away from all he is and wat he does got me on this crazy ass website all b–cus.. ur so stubborn it gotta be your way. damn! i shuolda listened to mary j. blige cuz IT AIN‘T ALL ROSES

now lay me down to sleep with the boy from down the street 9 minutes of pleasure 10 minutes of pain won‘t my daddy have a cow when he knows what i know what i know want my mommy be surprised when she see‘s my tummy rise when you climb the ladder to success don‘t let the boy‘s look up your dress they‘ll say it‘s nice they‘ll say it‘s fine 9 months later they‘ll say it‘s not mine.

u hurt me so bad,
u missed almost 9 years of my birthday,
u left me with no heart,
u was suppose to be my father,
u were suppose to act like one,
but u never did,
u treat me like shit when i lived with u,
u beat me everyday,
day in and day out,
u left bruses and cuts on my skin,
but u even left scars in my brain,
u even hit my mom,
and treated her like shit,
u treated my brother that was not ur child like a prince,
and i was ur real daughter,
u didn‘t care how i felt,
or how i was crying,
i stayed in my room to stay away from u,
but u always came in and beat me,
u weren‘t made to be a father,
u were made to a an abuser,
someone that hurts their child,
i still love u and no one could change that,
not even u,
yah u hurt me and yah u treated me like shit,
but u gave birth to me,
so i love u,
u should be sorry for hurting me and etc.
but i bet u don‘t care or even see! ! !

u hurt me so bad,
u missed alomost 9 years of my birthday,
u left me with no heart,
u was suppose to be my father,
u were suppose to act like one,
but u never did,
u treat me like shit when i lived with u,
u beat me everyday,
day in and day out,
u left bruses and cuts on my skin,
but u even left scars in my brain,
u even hit my mom,
and treated her like shit,
u treated my brother that was not ur child like a prince,
and i was ur real daughter,
u didn‘t care how i felt,
or how i was crying,
i stayed in my room to stay away from u,
but u always came in and beat me,
u weren‘t made to be a father,
u were made to a an abuser,
someone that hurts their child,
i still love u and no one could change that,
not even u,
yah u hurt me and yah u treated me like shit,
but u gave birth to me,
so i love u,
u should be sorry for hurting me and etc.
but i bet u don‘t care or even see! ! !

Let the flies of summer,
fly high to mask the sun.
And the bees of mid–day,
bring their sweetness colored
Into rainbows of light,
and butterflies in flight,
From the caterpillars view,
brings a whole world new.

Let the children fly,
from their cocoons nest,
And the souls of man,
learns in his heart to rest,
Knowing deep down inside,
that we are the best,
Butterflies on earth,
to colour from east to west.

Let the spirit of Him,
be ever at your side
and forever in your heart,
for you do know
What we seek for ourselves,
should be put on the shelves
That our everlasting breath,
be the work of God.

ﾩWJ

My faith has grown old
and life seems so cold
i cant remember the last time i seen ya
and that sucks more than its suppose ta
just keep thinkin of our past
wondering and wishing it would last
but because of her you are now gone
and still today my heart is torn
cause i miss you still everyday
i still love you with all my heart
babe why did you have to chose that fucken tart!?
she doesnt love you the way i do
i was so proud to call you my baby boo
then i think back to the past
and know why it didnt last
see losers love losers
thats the way it goes
and your bitch can go on my list of nasty hoes!